We're now deep into the second week of the war and it's becoming the new normal - you start the day with the news that came in overnight, counting new explosions across Ukraine.
A few days ago, when I woke up, I ran into the news about large rocket attacks in Kiev, near where my dad lives.
It took me 10 minutes to get up the courage to call him and ask if he and his partner were okay.
And yes, they are fine - I felt a wave of relief.
I noticed that I no longer cry, even when I see the horrible images of destruction in Kiev and Russian tanks in the surrounding towns and villages.
I am thinking of these once peaceful places, where our friends have their dachas - country cottages.
We visited them with the children, barbecued and sipped wine in comfortable armchairs.
Now some of those cities have been completely destroyed by heavy fighting and artillery fire.
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One thing that brought me to tears recently was a message from an app dealing with the daily happenings in Kyiv.
It was a list of things that WON'T happen that day - concerts and exhibitions, events that now seem like something from a previous life.
These apps now provide a different kind of information - air raid alerts, supermarket lists of food and pharmacies with medicine.
My mother called me the other day and happily said that she managed to buy two loaves of bread!
And this is all happening in a city where food of all varieties was once abundantly available.
That's actually more shocking to me than pictures of burnt Russian tanks.
My XNUMX-year-old son doesn't go to school, not even online.
Some teachers stayed in Kyiv, others left.
His classmates also fled to the countryside or abroad.
They chat on Zuma, play games, pretend to be hackers fighting for Ukraine.
One of the chats they set up on the messaging app is called: "War Matters."
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Every day, almost every Ukrainian has to make a decision - to stay or to leave.
It's a decision that often depends on the level of threat from Russian shelling and the proximity of Russian troops.
During the first week of the war, almost a million people packed their bags - they became refugees.
But many have decided to stay, at least for now.
Famous singers, artists and athletes joined the army, while millions of Ukrainians became volunteers, trying to help those who needed help the most.
Shortages of food, medicine and gasoline are occurring in many parts of the country - supply chains have been disrupted by Russian troops or blocked roads for other reasons.
The situation is worst in cities and towns that are surrounded by the Russian army, or that are under the heaviest bombardment.
There is a constant shortage there, and people may not even have clean water.
It seems as if Ukrainians have become one big family where every member tries to help in any way.
Those who can fight, fight.
Who can cook, cooks.
Those who can deliver, deliver.
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Now every town and even village has checkpoints where armed men check the documents of everyone who enters.
The village where I live has two, where the locals work in shifts 24 hours a day.
Foreigners, even if they are Ukrainians, are not welcome.
There was a heartbreaking story from Kherson, the first city captured by Russian forces, where an elderly man without legs and fingers became a volunteer.
This feeling of unity has never been so strong among Ukrainians.
The earth is now like a great beehive producing the hope of victory.
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