It was a long night, too long, thirty of my years passed through it in one. All this time I was imagining how I would feel when it dawned, hundreds of versions were running through my head...
Only one thing never crossed my mind - that I wouldn't feel anything. If the void in the soul is not counted in the feelings.
I also feel fear, but not my own, but that of Montenegro. And the greatest of all fears - fear of the unknown.
Which, for the first time in its long history, she faced not with a weapon but with a pencil. That's why he looks so confused...
I know, I should be happy about that pen, but I can't.
Because I don't know if she wrote purely from the heart. Nor what percentage of those who were encouraged to cancel their support for the master by the lucrative hope...
***
In the seventh decade, reason is stronger than feelings, that's why I watch the election numbers for days. And I'm afraid that on Sunday night, not only the sincere desire for freedom, justice and equality won.
Rather, the chronic flyovers - first they sense the tendency of the regime to fall, then immediately seize the opportunity to settle in again - left the master in the lurch. It showed on his face around midnight. Well, he knew how to be really frowning even when he was only losing two or three mandates.
But now he has lost much more, including the most important thing - unlimited power. That's why he had nothing left to do that night but - like a child in the dark - loudly dispel his fear of the unknown.
Although he still has two and a half years in office, these elections have sealed his political fate.
While he was saying that he still has thirty mandates, that his party is still the strongest, that with his partners he has forty - he was as black as the earth.
And that's exactly the one she leaves us. It is so black that you wouldn't even want to rule it over an executioner, let alone a born opposition...
***
I know, the readers are already fuming, what is this story about, we won, we should celebrate.
And it should, there will be days, I'm not going dark in order to kill the voters of the winning parties.
It just seems to me that if they avoid the euphoria now, it will be easier to bear what lies ahead. An empty state coffers, to begin with...
In the end, I hope, they will see what they fought for - a normal, moral, healthy, free, just, educated and rich Montenegro.
But it is at least twenty years before that end, if the winners start building it already this Monday.
Even thirty, if only two or three months late.
If they repeat the mistakes of the former regime, it may not be there. Not only Montenegro from our long-ago dreams, but none at all.
***
I haven't yet registered any of those mistakes in the leaders' speeches.
But leadership is a perishable commodity if it is sustained by pandering to the masses. Because lifting is followed by manipulation of that same mass.
We had more under depees than we could handle. Among other things, I guess that's why we dispossessed him.
The most difficult is the first time, each subsequent government will fall more easily. And faster, if she spreads illusions about higher salaries and pensions in front of everyone. Or among their own about employment - their own.
Even the promised expert government does not have long life, if any party packs up its cadres and delivers them to others with the message - take it or leave it...
Or even worse - if the winners revive the tradition from the opposition days, and start negotiating through the media.
In order to spread fear of any persecution of political opponents, not only in public administration but anywhere, the three leaders have already given their word.
***
Their word is, for now, the only guarantee that after three decades not only a change of government has taken place, but also that a fundamental change of the system has begun.
I don't know if the international community will believe in those four - principled but key - messages of the new government, I can only see that part of the domestic field did not recognize them.
While I was reading that "the new democratic government will responsibly implement all internationally assumed obligations", it did not seem necessary for Dritan Abazović to break down that principled message into simple elements. URA has known this since birth.
Aleksa Bečić didn't have to either, the Democrats learned that lesson a long time ago.
To all parties in the strongest coalition and to all voters, their leader Zdravko Krivokapić should have been the first to translate that message.
If he had done it on election night, instead of prematurely declaring victory, there might have been fewer "celebratory" incidents.
***
In short, "implementing all internationally undertaken obligations" should mean:
- There is no mention of the previously promised referendum on unification with Serbia. But not because he could never get more than 20 percent support. Nor because Serbia doesn't want us and that the celebration of the new 1918 in its media and on the streets should only make a fuss about the recognition of the neighboring state of Kosovo. Rather, because we have already experienced that unification with a country ten times more numerous and larger is not feasible without a general civil war in Montenegro, perhaps even wider.
- It is forbidden to celebrate war criminals, not only Draža, who was sung for days, but also Radovan and Ratko and all the others who temporarily remained in his shadow. But not only because of "international obligations", but because there is no future for Montenegro and everyone in it, if they don't finally put a public end to the fact that they are war criminals.
- The battles for Kosovo are over, but not only those from 1389 and 1999, but also these street battles. Kosovo is our neighboring country, as independent, sovereign and democratic as all the others in the Western Balkans.
- Republika Srpska for all participants in the new government, as well as all those who voted for it or against it, remains what it became in Dayton - one of the entities of the state of Bosnia and Herzegovina. In the last century, Montenegro twice paid in blood for dreams of some kind of accession and unification, the third attempt would - bury it.
***
The Montenegrins did not accidentally play that card of fear. Such a collective cry of Europeans, and that only because of a change of government - a phenomenon that has been normal and desirable in that Europe for centuries - the world did not remember.
They were so shaken that they didn't even notice that they were right on the hands of the new government, writing with their own hand the list for their own lustration.
I wouldn't have put it together more precisely either, and it killed my voice to remember everything from the beginning of the nineties...
- No more Montenegro - all Montenegrin intellectuals who incorporated at least a fraction of themselves into Milo Đukanović's regime write their death certificates and mention them.
And they call for her to come on Sunday at seven in the morning. Wouldn't it be easier for them to overcome the fear of the unknown in the crowd - how can they live without a master...
***
They made my heart ache, especially those who completely built themselves up. Here's a song more pitiful than young Gojkovica...
Despite the fact that, like her, they are not covered with the force of gray stone, but with the love of multicolored euros...
- The Montenegrin state has disappeared - it's as if I hear a wail from the portal as well, not just from the television.
Montenegro? Well, she passed away on the tenth anniversary of Tito's death. Milo Đukanović buried her while he and his friends were building Serbian Sparta.
In order to remain at its head, he investigated a third of Montenegrins, kicked them out of the Constitution and reduced them from almost 62 percent to 43, a little...
He didn't need them until he needed a referendum, but he only managed to get two percent back.
I know well some of the mourners, and I know that they also know very well that the dreams of the resurrection of the majority people in the 2020 census will not be realized by the formation of the party's Montenegrin church.
Not any, if it is done by the one who killed the original and only possible CPC right after the renewal.
***
- Montenegro has been governed by Belgrade since Sunday - I listen and move the ashtray so it doesn't end up in the middle of the screen.
Where did these Montenegrins live while Belgrade really governed Montenegro for a full decade.
- They are cursing us, do you hear what the Chetniks are singing - they are terrorizing the people and on all social networks.
I hear, the glorification of war criminals gets on my nerves too.
I just don't understand why the drama, the DPS from power follow the same songs with which he came to power.
It's just that at that time, barely ten percent of Montenegrins disliked Draž. And the rest of 90 percent sang in the Ravna Gora choir, together with the three leaders.
When Montenegro survived that miracle, it ended up with these two or three Draža companies that didn't even manage to mobilize more than one percent for the celebration.
***
So, Montenegrins, just relax. And fear not, nothing terrible happened on August 30.
Apart from that, Montenegro defeated depees and Milo Đukanović.
Yes, it's her first time, but take my word for it - she feels good, not even her little finger hurt...
Just so that Depees doesn't think of treating her by force, like in '89...
PS It did hurt me, and severely, that Momir M. Marković did not wait for August 30, even though he gave his all for that day of freedom. Now, while the Montenegrins are crying for their master, I remembered the tears I shed when they killed Miodrag Perović and his family. And yes, I finally found a reason to be happy. Not only because he survived the fall of Milo Đukanović, but also because Vijesti and Monitor outlived his rule. Also to reset PMF to factory settings and - my heart will be full.
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